Let me explain. I tend to harbour feelings of anxiety whilst pregnant. Before I fall pregnancy (catch this oxymoron) I become anxious about being anxious in pregnancy. Why, because it can get really bad, so far I have experienced it in all three pregnancies, and know that if we are to have any more children this is something I will face again. It’s something that disappears after childbirth (or miscarriage in the other case) so it’s not an everlasting fear, just something I know I will have to face and battle in at least half of my pregnancy.
It generally only affects the times I sleep but yesterday I got to experience it during the day, twice. There is nothing for me to be anxious about at the time being, we are infact in the middle of renovations, but they are all going smoothly and I have all confidence that we will finish them before bubba Will is welcomed into the world. The anxiety I feel is usually associated with nothing. Boring I know. It comes on in times of rest, where I will suddenly jolt up and have a mild panic attack.
I have noticed that each time this has started has been when my blood glucose has started to peak. I tested during both times of anxiousness yesterday and both of those times I was a little high (I hadn't waited the full two hours after a meal to test, it was more like 1-1.5 hours, but I was interested to see if it was high during anxiety). It is also triggered during times of sickness, my son has a bad chesty cough and I have gotten the cold end of it, making it harder to breath (on already restricted breathing). What possibly makes it worse is that I tend to become claustrophobic, so being unable to breathe freaks me out.
I have found a number of ways to combat this though, not all of them are possible at certain times, but they definitely help when I can do them. The first is exercise, I find the distraction and endorphins help calm me down and settle me for quite a few hours, this can be as simple as a 10 minute walk. Obviously I can't do this at 4am in the middle of winter but if I find that this is a reoccurring thing I may be inclined to relocated the treadmill out of our bedroom into another room where I won't disturb anyone if I need to go on a quick walk. Another of my coping mechanisms is to call my hubby up and have a chat, again this is not always possible, sometimes he is with a client or in a meeting or in the middle of rendering a wall and is unwilling or unable to talk. I’m also not sure if he appreciates the 4am wake ups either to talk about ‘stuff’ just to get my mind off whatever it is that is keeping me awake. Playing music has helped me in the past, although this was to relax me if I was struggling to fall asleep. I may try a hot bath before bed if all else fails.
Have you encountered anxiety in your pregnancy? And if so what have you found to help you overcome it?